Saturday, November 7, 2009


I'm not going to blog about halloween, too much to say. seriously.

This week was TOUGH. I want to move out :( I just feel like a huge burden and too much pressure in this house. I feel kind of like I can't breath.

Toying with the idea of filing bankruptcy but don't want to just for the sole reason that I won't be able to rent ANYWHERE. And I don't know a lot of people I could live with. Just my friend Carrie but she has a place until next summer. Or if I was with someone... but that is not the current situation.

Long boring week.. except for Thurs. night. Wednesday and I went to Mr. Helton's for a little sleepover parrrty! It was extremely fun until we started watching Last House on the Left and I ended up under the covers with my fingers holding my ears shut and hoping I'd fall fast asleep. Then in the morning I got to meet a little sassy four year old who planned a trip with me to find the spirit of the cowgirls in Texas. I was to ride a green horse and Wednesday a brown dog horse that barked. Hopefully this happens.

Friday night was also not boring but very fun :) Lauren and I got to babysit Penny Lou and Pickles the doggie. Penny is hilarious. And very precious. I didn't mind having a sweet babe laying on me for three hours. I think it actually was really good for me.

Things in the works: job interview at Forever 21 on thurs... Ha! Probably will only be a little bit of money but it's a start! I have been emailing and calling UC but have not heard back yet. Hopefully I can get that accomplished this week. And I need to figure out if I am filing bankruptcy or not and make an appt. with the lawyer dude who is really nice. And lots of driving crap I need to get fixed up.

Um do you know that VW charges $135-$300 to get keys made. LAME.


Friday, October 30, 2009

I'm gonna run this town tonight

Quite a weird eventful week.

I applied at Forever 21 yesterday. Then tomorrow I'm going to anthropologie for an open interview thing and then next week blockbuster is having open interviews as well. Um FREE rentals all the time... would be AWESOME!!

Watched the Phillies take the first win in the series. My dad was doing outrageous and amazing things. I was typing all his quotes on facebook and everyone who knows my dad got a good laugh! OH GEORGE. "I tried to be jewish; It didn't work out."

I watched Teeth the other night. I loved it. It was slow and kind of felt like a play. But I related so much to it because I used to be a Jesus Freak in HS and have an severe anger towards males who take advantage of girls. It was ridiculous. He fell asleep so I left and felt very lonely in a weird awful way.

I ate at Zola for lunch on wednesday with my parents, grandparents, and Stephanie and it was soo good. I had fried zuchinni and a ceasar salad. And lots of cranberry juice with lemon. My favorite juice EVER.

I watched another good movie. He told me not to tell anyone about it so I guess I can't. It was pretty predictable but beautiful. And I broke his clock... oops. I didn't realize it was functional. It just looked like a pizza to me. He had artwork from Ashley G and that made me excited. I have been a fan of her shop on Etsy for a while now.

When I was driving home that night and there was a deer running across 75 so we all were stopping and it seemed like the deer was going to get away alright and then it took a sudden dash the other way and this semi in the fast lane going 43290482 mph plowed her and she flew over to the shoulder. I don't know what happened to me but i inched over 4 lanes of traffic, parked, and ran back towards where she landed as fast as I could. i reached down cautiously to pet her and not scare her. she was drooling and wheezing and i just pet her face and neck until she took her last breath. it was terrible. it really was so awful. i'm still upset about it.

The weather has been perfect. It will be great for halloween. My outfit is silly but I don't care. Lauren let me spend $7 and it's going to be good enough for me!
Last night was pretty random which equals fun. I got to see Erin and Travis which was really fun esp. because I miss them! And we went to C&D and you could hear crickets.. or rats or whatever. So we walked to Northside Tavern and I met a handsome boy who could almost be considered a ginger that was very nice. And I ran into Ben and Adam. We frollicked around northside... and Adam had his longboard. I did an ollie with adam's help. But soon fell later on and busted my ass hard. My shoulder is all out of whack. I truly am an idiot. Then we went to this awesome girl Steph's apartment... and i got to listen to the new Brand New album which was exciting because they had an acoustic version of Jesus. This kid Ryan with an legendary beard had the Cd.

I didn't get to sleep until like 9 this morning and then was woken up to go to lunch again with the fam bc Lar took a half day at work. we went to cheddars. deeelish of course. Then walmart to get supplies for my costume and then the dealership where Lar paid to get my car lights fixed... another $100 to my tab.

Oh AND she paid to have my cell phone turned back on this week. I'm so stoked. She seriously is so amazing and supportive... and SELFLESS.

Today is my sister steph's bday, 27! happy bday :D

I'm excited for the weekend and am sad kind of that it is already here bc I didn't do any haunted houses or hayrides or pumpkin patches! well time for a nappy, then happy hour with the fam for steph's bday, make shirt for tonight, and then figure out the secure plans. yayayayay!


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Nose bleed

Time to get up today out of bed and I roll over and blood just starts spurting out. I got it on my favorite flannel shirt and his pillow. Oopsie. It was a mild one though. I haven't had one of those in years.

Watched some adorable boys jam out last night. It was refreshing.

Ate delicious pizza... it had fig sauce stuff and mozz and squash and some weird bacon and onions and rosemary and all this other stuff.. and it was deeelish. then we dipped our crusts into hummus that ben made. tasty but it made me miss Carrie's homemade hummus.

watched Wrong Turn 3. terrible. just terrible. it went straight to DVD not because it was too graphic for theaters but because it was ridiculous.

grandparents are here. it is nice having them around because it makes me mom in a better mood. she is off work all week to hang out with them. it is hard though being around everyone all day long. black sheep just keep ringing in my ears.

dropped at of NKU. Epic Fail. cannot afford it bc NKU is dumb and doesn't know how to do financial aid. i want to try to got to UC for their radiologic program but they have a 2-3 year waiting list. I'm so lost.

i trimmed my hair last night. it looks nice. grow. i have been taking prenatal vitamins to help.

etsy had a nice turn for the better this weekend :D

supposedly i make little baby chick noises in my sleep, snore loudly, cough like i have been smoking for 48230482 years, and bleed from my nose all over. attractive.

i did have a good dream last night though. all the lawns were wet on my street and i took a tube and just rode down fast like a maniac down to my house. it was amazing.


Saturday, October 24, 2009

Down the rabbit hole

i'm not sure if i have been more excited for any other movie to come out in my life. i wish that dakota fanning was alice.. but she is too young bc alice is supposed to 19 in the movie.. but dakota is like 15 noowww.

oh well it's going to be amazing.

i can't stop thinking about it.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Drag Me to Hell

turned out to be a comedy. we didn't even finish watching it but decided instead to do something scary and walk to the gas station in mt. airy but it proved to be a lot more fun :D

i had a really nice night last night with the greatest boy. even if we never end up together FOREVER and all that jazz, he will always be one of my very best friends. he is a very positive person right now for me to hang out with.

this weekend has many opps for FUNTIME:
today is mom's bday!
gparents comin sunday!
mayday opening!
c&d party!
halloween and present shopping with Lauren!
cleaning and finishing laundry so i feel organized!
making crafts and collages!! :D
wearing my new boots!
fall clothes!
fall love!


Thursday, October 22, 2009

I don't care

what the fuck you think of me.

My mom was freaking out because she had to go to Kohl's for bday presents for October and it just made me so sad. There isn't anything wrong with Kohl's. I just have realized so much over the past year. Material things are fun, don't get me wrong.. but they don't make you who you are. My mom is wonderful just the way she is no matter how much money she spends or where she buys it from.

I watched medium last night... So good.

LL this morning. It wasn't that great... she was crying bc she felt like she had failed. Uhhhh I'm the failure.

Listed my Cole Hamels hat on Ebay. Sad about it.

I have been getting messages that people are following my twitter even though I check it like once a week. i don't even know how people find me.

I have also been recently getting sweaty in the Etsy forums fighting with other Etsy sellers.

Lauren is paying my $5 a load to do her laundry. YIPEEE.

Wednesday has been smelling really good lately... like grass and cold air. I like it.

This weekend the gypsy hut is reopening as a new place called Mayday. Schwing! It's weird I got mugged by punks with guns right near there. But shit like that is all around us.

Things I EXCITE about:

hanging out with Jamie Sunshine
hearing about Tracy's trip to Chicago when she comes home
these christmas tags i made from postcards that were 100 yrs old
all the snail mail i sent out yesterday to my fwraands
momma's bday tomorrow!! yay!
mom-mom & pop-pop are coming into town for a week and we get to carve pumpkins :D
Craft Mafia #2 on Nov. 28 & 29
demetri martin
the new tegan and sara CD woop woop
next semester, more class... dance dance... loan money
volunteering at St. E

things that make me really happy right now:

random messages on facebook. life is so weird without a phone.
the dogs all coming in with dirt on their noses from trying to catch moles.
it being perfect sunroof weather.
the manatees from the cincy zoo are getting released into the wild in FL this week.
they provided much happiness for me this summer, now they get to be free!!
reading. everything.
seeing a particular boooy.
my kick ass little pony, i almost can do a side braid which i'm stoked about.
My practice lab cdrom with dead bodies.
Imagining life with you.

I want to live in a big loft in the city with wednesday. And take xrays to see if people's hearts can grow like the grinch's did. Bc some people really need it.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009