H1N1

wow, i feel like total shit. i basically have slept this entire humpday away. i don't think i have swine flu but my immune system in down the tubes so i'm scared to go to school bc i'm more apt to catch it. ugg!

i feel all like jello and dizzy and vertigoooo. whoa.

i can't really even think straight. but had to get up out of my bed and do something! i did eat a meal which is good. i had mashed potatoes and corn on the cob and pasta salad for dinner. i haven't eaten meat in almost a week! i'm proud of myself! the cadaver that i had to see for school was good inspiration to never want to eat meat again.

i ran out of propel. ahh. it looks like i'm going to have to use the money i made off of my ipod and wedding dress to buy my book to actually go to the doctor tomorrow and buy more propel. a case of it. it's the only fluid i can keep drinking and drinking.

i hope i feel better by the weekend. there is a party at grammer's that looks like it is really going to be a lot of fun. i think i'm more excited to get dressed for it than anything!! spandex. woo hoo.

it seems like sometimes people come out of the woodwork when you least expect it and you don't know what to do with them. you don't want to hurt others. you don't want to be in the middle of something. but you find you are. and really there isn't even anything going on.

whoa time to lay back down. my brain hurts.

xoxo
MEL