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Things are very fuzzy right now. And I'm not even drunk or on drugs. Really.
I feel extremely weird.

Still sick. COUGH THIS COUGH THAT.

Movies I want to see:Paranormal Activity
Where the Wild Things Are
The Box
Sherlock Holmes

Drag me to hell is on DVD. Must rent ASAP.


Things I want to do for Halloween:USS Nightmare
Fear Fest.. or whatever it is called at K Island
Pumpkin carving (which I think we are doing when my grandparents get here)
Make a halloween costume... still don't know what to be


Things I want:retractable sharpie markers
my quilt drycleaned
to be tan, it never happened this summer
my hair trimmed and touched up
new glasses
flannel
this fuzzy hoody from Old Navy which is weird bc I never like their stuff anymore but I keep thinking about this hoodie i saw there and feeling warm inside it
to start dance lessons
to snuggle, particularly in my new hoodie
rainboots
tattoos. immediately.


I went to a volunteer seminar today at St. E. It was pleasant. I really enjoy the lady in charge. She reminded me of Sue Sylvester, if Sue had a good twin. But my eyes kept doing that thing where everything gets splotchy and you can't see very well. It was so weird to be in the hospital but not be there for myself. So odd. They say your vision gets fucked up when your anxiety is high. Well seeing lately has been a true display of my anxiety. http://www.anxietyguru.net/can-anxiety-cause-vision-problems/


I really really love my friends. I have not been seeing much of them lately because I don't have a cell phone and I can't contact people very often and I have been sick so much off and on this semester. BUT the times I have hung out with them I have realized I have found some really amazing people that love me for who I am... and for what I have become. I feel desperate sometimes for old friends that don't seem to be able to give me what I want... they are not present and I just have to keep realizing to let it go. My friend Tracy has a little blurb on her FB that says.. don't worry about the people in your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future. I totally agree with that now.

I had a great time dancing my ass off with my friend Jasmine.. and I finally felt like myself for a couple of hours. My soul finally swooped down back into my body like when a vampire or superhero lands steadily, heavily, and strongly after a furious flight.

I worked on a random ass new project last night. I am extremely excited with the results.








You can check out more in my etsy shop! I painted wooden cutouts and sanded them and then used these really cute rub on transfers. I want to design some of my own rubons but I need a lot of help with the computer and trying to make ink drawings digital.

Well tonight I might try to go to Grammers. They are showing three scary movies! I want some free popcorn too. No beers though. I think alcohol would only make life more fuzzy. Cranberry juice with 329,015,826 lemons in it sounds fantastic though. Except I don't have any money AT ALL :( BOO.

Love Love Love
Me

halloweeenie

i need this outfit. oh my gosh i can't really explain how happy it made me. i went to search for red lace gloves as the finishing touch and they had them! o.m.gEeejfkdsak!!

and this is what i want to be for halloween, but it is $85 so i think i might try to make something similar myself.





PROTONS:
seeing carrie's new place finally
three doggies sleeping in my bed
morningstar
fall being here
craft shows coming up
cuddling with a sweet boy
lime beer
hair growing fast
dog sitting this weekend, $$$$$
cranenergy juice
hannah's cookies
it's kristen's bday <3
black african soap

ELECTRONS:
missing erica's bday
having panic attacks
missing school
not being able to swallow
still no bank account
still no job
no phone
no school loans


xoxo
Mel

October has begun FINALLY.

I feel like every year I wait and wait and wait for fall but this year it has come so fast weather wise. It is exciting!

I was really sick and got better kind of of then I got Strep throat! It was awful. And I still am not feeling up to par since a month ago. Not sure what is going on?

Probably stress.

Like today for example.

I had to get gas or I would not make it to school for a huge test in anatomy class. The only money I have or even have access to was $10 via my new paypal debit card. Well it decided not to work and the screen kept saying call card issuer. Well, I couldn't because my phone has been shut off for a few weeks now.. due to no funds.

I looked in my wallet and yes indeed I had $13 to my name! $10 in a paypal account that is unusable and three dollars in change that was USABLE! I got a little over one gallon and was able to make it to and fro. Let's just see how tomorrow works...

The test went pretty well. I sweated a lot. But that's normal.

My eyes have been burning.
I think it's because they are the window to your soul.

Etsy = extremely slow. I read that this one seller sold 720 items today and her shop was cool but like not AMAZING. the pics were dark, no tags for searching, and the shipping was the price of the item. And i said wow, looks like I should just give up after the holidays... once I get my Etsy bills paid off! I try to make "cool" "stuff" but there is so much competition out there that it just isn't fun anymore and I don't feel very artistic.

I want to get into drawing again. I haven't drawn for years. The last time I picked up charcoal I was in a figure drawing class and saw my friend Taylor rendering a picture perfect skeleton while mine looked like a jello mold (as most everything i do, does) and the teacher was trying to talk to me and my voice fell silent.. I had a panic attack and walked out of those doors for good... and decided to just get an associates in art because i could never muster up the courage to even go on... let alone do a Sr. show.

But now since I'm on my own and not standing next to someone comparing myself all the time maybe I will have more patience... and more importantly be more gentle to my damn self.

So I'm excited about pumpkins and hayrides... and costumes! and going to haunted houses and bats and fake blood and itchy wigs and candy corn... and wednesday dressing up as something rweally cute. wow, fall is the best. you cannot deny that. etsy is bustling with fall items galore and you can tell fall is just the season of a crafters' dreams!

I recently pierced my ears myself... I have not had my ears pierced since I was six or seven. I feel okay about it. It didn't hurt that much. Just sounded disgusting as it tore through the skin. It's very very odd to see myself with earrings in.. but i think it can open some doors for me styling wise. Sometimes I'm looking for the perfect accessory... ?!

That is all for now in my nook.

oh yea... once my school loans come in..
i am getting heroes tattooed on my left wrist
and thieves tattooed on my right

we never really know anyone.

H1N1

wow, i feel like total shit. i basically have slept this entire humpday away. i don't think i have swine flu but my immune system in down the tubes so i'm scared to go to school bc i'm more apt to catch it. ugg!

i feel all like jello and dizzy and vertigoooo. whoa.

i can't really even think straight. but had to get up out of my bed and do something! i did eat a meal which is good. i had mashed potatoes and corn on the cob and pasta salad for dinner. i haven't eaten meat in almost a week! i'm proud of myself! the cadaver that i had to see for school was good inspiration to never want to eat meat again.

i ran out of propel. ahh. it looks like i'm going to have to use the money i made off of my ipod and wedding dress to buy my book to actually go to the doctor tomorrow and buy more propel. a case of it. it's the only fluid i can keep drinking and drinking.

i hope i feel better by the weekend. there is a party at grammer's that looks like it is really going to be a lot of fun. i think i'm more excited to get dressed for it than anything!! spandex. woo hoo.

it seems like sometimes people come out of the woodwork when you least expect it and you don't know what to do with them. you don't want to hurt others. you don't want to be in the middle of something. but you find you are. and really there isn't even anything going on.

whoa time to lay back down. my brain hurts.

xoxo
MEL

Transition from summer to fall

With all of this cool weather it's hard not to get pumped about fall fashion!

Plan B

no, not the pill.


Well, since Fashion school was a bust and a half I have moved on to Plan B. I am now going to attend NKU in the fall (well august) and start their program for an XRAY or Ultrasound technician, Radiological...etc. Yes, it may seem a far cry from the relm of art but I feel passionate about helping people too and realized this may put more stability in my life... I will have a definite job when I get out. And since I have the 6 years of college I have already completed under my belt I assume it will not take me 2 years to finish the program.

This semester I only signed up for 9 credit hours because I want to ease into and I am taking two sciences both with labs.. so that is 8 hours. Then I'm taking intro to Tennis! I am really excited. It's only 1 credit hour but it puts me at the mark to have enough hours eligible to do Work Study! I have wanted to learn to play tennis for a long time. I am horrible at big team sports because I get so self conscious but I feel like this could be something I can really sink into... and love.

I got some creative juices flowing today! I worked on organizing more of my craft supplies and started on my inspiration corkboard thingamajig. Also, my sister and I broke out the beads and supplies and made some things! She made her first attempt at those intense beaded rings... and I made two pairs of really unique earrings that I'm super proud of.

On yes I watched the Uninvited tonight with my mom. It was so good! We both loved it and were really impressed with the plot and how the ending... well ended.

Some new fav looks from my style book that I created:

and be sure to check out my etsy!!
www.nightowlcrafts.etsy.com

I should be doing some little shows coming up, I'll keep you posted. Oh wait, no one reads this.... :) haha my own delight.

Please!

Well fashion school at DAAP is def. still a dream. Only 38% of people who apply get in. I GOT IN. But it is so expensive plus you have to buy a Mac Book Pro and tons of software. And many many art supplies for the studio classes. The loans I recieved only covered $16,000 and I need a minimum of $27,000. HA! You cannot possibly have a full time job while doing DAAP because it's so intense and so much outside work. UG. And a part time job... yea that would cover $11,000 that I'm short... I applied for the METRO rate since I live in a county in KY that is close to UC. But the BA that I am aiming for is not listed... only certain BA from DAAP are listed. So will I get the metro rate??? Let's cross our fingers. Once I know this I can nip my dream in the bud or finally feel like I have some direction in my life. I will be truly crushed if I cannot make this happen. I need this... I needsomething to go right for once!!

On happier notes....
I went to target today to spend the last on my credit card and take advantage of some good coupons and my %10 off my entire purchase reward. I saved $47.00. My favorite purchase were these Skinny black jeans with Zippers on the ankles. Hell yeah!

A really great Etsier (http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=5342105) just bought some necklaces from my shop and was kind enough to compare me to this popular jewelry and accessories designer: http://www.tarinatarantino.com/
You can really get sucked in that website. Of course it has some of my favorite things like Abe Lincoln and Barbie :)

Another note that makes me happy:
ShopStyle is a great website where you can create a profile and create looks with different pieces from fashion designers. It's all dreams for me but SO FUN. I highly recommend the website. :)
here is my profile on there: add me!
http://www.shopstyle.com/users/TheBareTree

XOXO
Mel